Category: Sabbatical

Do You Truly Love Me?

Do You Truly Love Me?

When they had eaten breakfast, Jesus asked Simon Peter, “Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” “Yes, Lord,” he said to him, “you know that I love you.” “Feed my lambs,” he told him. A second time he asked him, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” “Yes, Lord,” he said to him, “you know that I love you.” “Shepherd my sheep,” he told him. He asked him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” Peter was grieved that he asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.” “Feed my sheep,” Jesus said. – John 21:15-17

Peter was Restored and Called to be a Pastor

With those words spoken beside the charcoal fire over a breakfast of fresh fish, Jesus called Peter out of his brokenness. Jesus also called Peter away from his career as a fisherman to become the first pastor of the first church. From that moment, Peter’s commitment to his friend, teacher, and Lord took him away from his boats on the sea of Galilee to a “pulpit” in Jerusalem

Peter oversaw the first business of the committed disciples in Jerusalem before the church was launched by the Holy Spirit. Peter preached the first message of the church. He stood boldly before the Jewish leadership in Jerusalem who had imprisoned him and threatened his life. Peter dealt with the first acts of church discipline. Peter was the bold, evangelistic, determined pastor of the first church and the Lord poured out His Spirit on that ministry.

Love Changed Peter’s Life

Above all else ONE THING transformed Peter’s life. LOVE changed Peter. He had seen the love of Jesus displayed on the cross. He had also been reminded that he loved Jesus! Peter would feed and tend the sheep of God’s flock, because he loved the Great Shepherd. 

A Harsh Warning from Jesus

If our lives, and especially our ministry, isn’t based on LOVE OF Jesus and LOVE FOR Jesus then our ministry will become weak, failing, and will eventually be taken from us. That may sound harsh, but hear this warning from the ascended Lord to the once wonderful church at Ephesus. Don’t forget that Ephesus had served as the base for much of Paul’s ministry in Asia (Rev. 2:1-7). 

But I have this against you: You have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember then how far you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. Otherwise, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent.

Ministry, Faithfulness, and Doctrinal Purity aren’t Enough

Jesus recognized the hard-working ministry of the church. I know your works, your labor, and your endurance, and that you cannot tolerate evil people.

Jesus celebrated their faithfulness. I know that you have persevered and endured hardships for the sake of my name, and you have not grown weary.

And Jesus affirmed their purity of doctrine. You have tested those who call themselves apostles and are not, and you have found them to be liars.

But wonderful ministries, faithful commitment, and purity of doctrine is not enough. Jesus desires our hearts. He loves us and values our love more than any sacrifice or service.

We are all susceptible to allowing our love and passion for Jesus to ebb away. We are busy. Life is filled with daily routines and regular challenges. It happens in our marriages. The passion of that “first-love” can easily fade over time if we don’t tend the flames of our relationships, and our spouse is physically right in front of our eyes. 

Let’s All Check Our Hearts

How is your passion for the lover of your soul? Jesus who died for me and granted me enteral life deserves my very best. Of course, he deserves the work of my hands, my faithfulness, and my mind. But he wants and deserves my whole heart. 

Remember, Repent, and Return

He offered the church at Ephesus and he offers us a second chance. Remember then how far you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. Otherwise, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent.

Begin by looking back. REMEMBER when your heart and soul burned with your love for Christ? Take time to reflect on those days. Then REPENT! Confess to Him that you have fallen. He promises that He will forgive. Then RETURN. This may seem impossible on your own, so ask for His help! 

Jesus, my heart has grown cold. I’ve fallen into the routine of life, and I’ve lost my first love. Help me in my weakness. Restore my passion for you and your Word. Help me where I can’t help myself. Make my heart tender and pliable once again. Fill me heart with love for you as I reflect on your love for me. Thank you for still loving me, even when I fail you.

Life’s Unwanted Detours

Life’s Unwanted Detours

On the first 4700 miles of a 14k+ trip, Susan and I have faced several unwanted detours. These redirections have come in many ways, and each have had interesting outcomes. Though we may get frustrated, especially when the detour is caused by our own failure, we are continuing to learn the true meaning behind one of the most miss used passages of scripture. We are confident that, “We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God, who are called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28)

Before I go any further, let me remind you of a couple truths from this text that are often ignored when it is quoted. First, the text does not teach that all things that happen to us are good. Certainly, rotten stuff comes our way. Sometimes, we face pain because of someone else’s sin. Sometimes, our pain is caused by our own sin or simple mistakes. Other times, we face pain and suffering simply due to circumstances that come from living in a fallen world.  What may be the most challenging for a believer is that sometimes our Heavenly Father not only allows but plans and orchestrates things that cause us to suffer  to discipline us and mature our faith (1 Peter 1, Heb. 12:3-6). Jesus assured His disciples that “in this world you will have trouble.” (John 6:33)

Second, Romans 8:28 does not promise that all things work together for good for everybody! The text is a promise made specifically to believers who meet two criteria. They must be His kids (called according to his purpose). And, they are actively pursuing a relationship with Him (those who love God). Susan and I can have confidence in God’s plan and purpose for us even in the unwanted detours of life because we know that we are His and we are seeking to follow His will because of our love for Him.

In just the past week, we have been challenged with at least four different types of challenging detours. Each could have cause great frustration and anxiety. In all but one case, we found that by keeping our focus on our Lord we have been able to walk in the peace and joy that only He provides. [I’ll confess that when the detour was caused by my own stupidity that I got frustrated for a short while.] Additionally, in EVERY case, the Lord has provided something through the detour that worked out much better for us than our original plan.

The Planned Detour 

Our plan included leaving Johnston Campground in Banff National Park on Monday morning and driving up through Jasper National Park. I’ve told many people that I believe this is the most beautiful and awe-inspiring stretch of road that we have every traveled – and we’ve travelled much of all 50 states and several Canadian provinces. Leaving Jasper, we planned to head North to the beginning of the famous Alaskan Highway beginning at Dawson Creek and travel the length of the ALCAN through Whitehorse, Yukon.

However, in Glacier National Park, we began to encounter a lot of smoke. Upon investigation, I learned that almost 100 wildfires were out of control in NE British Columbia. Those fires would be right along our route. Not wanting to deal with the smoke, we planned an unwanted detour to travel west from Jasper and get “behind” the fires. This would be a detour of several hundred miles but only added about 40 miles to our trip. 

Though we planned the detour, the short notice ended up causing some frustration that I’ll detail later. Besides, we’d miss a few of the iconic mile markers along the first few hundred miles of the Alaskan Highway. In spite of our frustrations, this unwanted detour took us to some incredible places that we’d have otherwised missed. We saw a lot of wildlife and enjoyed the scenery so much that we plan to retrace some of those miles on the way back down to the states. Along the way the Lord provided people and experiences that really blessed us each day.

Unplanned Detour – Caused by Me

This unwanted detour was caused by my mistake. After getting over the mountains west of Jasper, I began trying to plan for where we would camp that evening. We stopped off at the visitor center at the Mount Robson Provincial Park to get some information. It had a beautiful view and a lot of good information, but the service was a bit lacking and caused a little frustration.

I picked a couple providential park campgrounds that would be about the correct distance for our travel that day. I was using a booklet provided by the parks system that had a small inset map of each region. I picked a park that looked right along our route, headed NW out of Prince George. This is where I made my mistake! After traveling over 30 miles toward that campground, we got stopped in a construction zone. As I sat there, I reviewed my travel plan on the “big map” and found that I was going the WRONG WAY!

In fact, the way we were headed would take us directly back to the area of the fires near Dawson Creek. We had learned that smoke was no longer the only problem. The highway had been shut down in two locations with over 200 miles of highway closed. We had no other choice except to continue through the construction, get back in line, and travel back through the construction and back to Prince George. By now, we were tired and realized that my mistake had taken us over 60 miles out of the way with a two-hour delay.

By the end of the evening, we eventually found a campsite along the correct route. The Lord blessed us with one of the only sites left in the area. A fellow traveler from Texas met us in the campsite and help us find the spot! It was a beautiful site and provided just the rest we needed.

Unplanned Detour – Not Caused by Me 

Though this unplanned detour was caused by my mistake, some detours in my life have been created by other means. The birth, suffering, and death of our first-born daughter is one example of this kind of detour in our life. Though we were earnestly seeking the Lord, we ended up facing years of painful challenges. I started to write that they eventually ended at Katie’s graveside, but that would not be true. Though those years hold many great memories, they also created many scars. Even today, we periodically feel the sting of Katie’s suffering and her passing.

Leaving our campsite this morning, I knew I needed to get gas soon. The first two places we came to that were supposed to have fuel were closed. Such is the challenge of traveling in remote places. The problem was that I had planned on one of these two being open and we were about to be in trouble. Instead of panic, we prayed. There was one more place on the map that we hoped would have enough fuel to reach. If we took it easy on the accelerator, we might just make it. Our “Distance to Empty” indicator was showing under 20 miles when we pulled up to the above ground fuel tanks.

This wasn’t where we hoped to fill up and it wasn’t what we had hoped to pay for fuel. However, on this unwanted detour, the Lord provided again. While I was filling my tank, a young trucker walked up and told me about a wreck that had just happened a few miles down the road. He said that it could take hours to clear. He gave me some great advice on getting around the wreck that probably saved us at least an hour. The Lord worked through this unwanted detour to save us hours. If that wreck had been before the fuel pumps, well that would be a different story.

When I think of these kinds of unwanted detours, I can’t help but remember the life of Joseph in Genesis. He experienced several unwanted detours after the Lord gave him a great vision. From the pit, to a mansion, to prison, to the palace, none of the detours were a part of his plan, but they certainly were used for his good, for his family’s salvation, and for God’s greater purpose for mankind. 

Helpful Detour – Following Good Advice

The providential encounter with this trucker also provided and answer to a prayer that we had been lifting up the past few days. We were struggling with whether to include a trip all the way to the Artic Ocean that would include pulling our trailer over 1080 miles of gravel road. I love the idea of the challenge, but the main reason to go beyond a certain point would be just to be able to say that we had been there. Susan and I had been trying to decide and just were uncertain.

While visiting with the afore mentioned trucker, he told me he was from Tuk –the small indigenous village at the end of the road on the Artic Ocean. When I told him we would be camping on the Dempster Highway at the Tombstone Mountains, he answered our prayer. He let us know that the road was in worse shape than usual. There was planned construction this summer to deal with its conditions. He said the best part of the trip was the Tombstone Mountains and a certain distance beyond. Once you pass that area, the scenery just wasn’t worth it. He recommended we camp at Tombstone Provincial Park and leave our trailer there. We could then drive a couple hours beyond the park and enjoy the best of the road without the stress. This was already something I had specifically considered and prayed about.

Just a few hours later, the Lord intervened with another individual to meet our needs. When closing our trailer earlier this week, it became evident that a key component of our camper would not last the whole trip. I needed to repair a bracket that would require an experienced welder or metal fabricator. My backup plan was a fix I could do myself, but I was uncertain of its effectiveness. 

After leaving the trucker and making the detour he suggested, I found a welding shop that I had a peace about. He looked at my bracket and said he was willing but was unsure that he could do what I needed without removing the bracket from the trailer and I know that would be a long task and practically impossible with our schedules. When I told him my “plan b,” he said that was a great idea. He felt that would hold better than a weld on the thin metal. A few miles down the road, as I stopped in a big parking lot to take care of it, I found a couple other issues that I hadn’t seen. By me doing the repairs on my own, I was saved a LOT of issues that were on the near horizon. 

The Lord used two unwanted detours to work things out “for our good.” He provided great advice from a providential meeting with the trucker that came from one unwanted detour to provide an answer to prayer – a detour that would come from following the trucker’s advice. I am certain the Lord orchestrated these unwanted circumstances to provide the advice needed for tomorrow’s detour. As long as I take the advice, I’m certain we’ll find the “good things” God has for us down the road the next few days.

Trusting the Lord in the Detours

Every unwanted detour can be frustrating. Many can be downright painful. When we are faced with unwanted detours, whether we have a say in them or not, we have a couple directions we can take. We can get anxious, panic, get made at God, blame the cause of the detour, or blame others for our mistake (or sin) that caused the detour. If we take this route, we will never find peace and will be regularly frustrated throughout our journey on this earth. 

There is another route we can take. When faced with life’s unwanted detours we can take them to the Lord in prayer. We can turn to His Word for guidance. Scripture is filled with men and women who faced unwanted detours – some trusted God and some didn’t. Consider Job’s unfair life of suffering. Take a look at how David responded to the spear chunking of King Saul. Maybe even revisit the story of Joseph and see how God took horrible circumstances and used them for His glory.

This evening, I am grateful for the detours. The unwanted detours have provided new experiences. We’ve found new friends. We’ve learned a little more about ourselves and we’ve learned to lean on the Lord.

I think I’ll take the truckers advice. He knows the territory and he has been where we want to go. He knows the dangers and the beautiful blessings of the land. I also think I’ll continue to trust in the Lord, His word, and the guidance of the Holy Spirit. He’s been there. He knows the terrain of the blessings and even the sufferings. When life brings us to a detour, I’m certain that it will result in our good and His purposes – whether we initially like the detour or not.

A Great Adventure

A Great Adventure

Susan keeps talking about how excited she is to be heading out on this “great adventure.” Only a couple days after her retirement from serving in the public school system as a special education teacher and school counselor, we set out on this four-month Sabbatical journey. It certainly seems like a great adventure is ahead.

40 Years of Adventure

As I look back, I feel like I’ve been on a “great adventure” from the time I surrendered to the Gospel ministry. Not long after that day over 40 years ago, I began looking for ways to serve in that call from God. A couple years later, Susan agreed to join me on this journey and what a great adventure it has been.

We had already committed to walk by faith, before the birth of our first daughter. That idea took on an entirely new meaning when Katie was born. With the addition of KariAnn to our family in May of 1991, we accepted the call to our first full-time pastoral role a few months later. Though the adventure into pastoral ministry had already begun in helping with two church plants and preaching regularly in a small rural church (about a dozen congregants).

Sabbatical Adventure

The Great Adventure we embarked on the evening of June 1st is no less of a step of faith than any others. We aren’t sure of what lies down the road and the Lord has only allowed us to have a few sparse plans in place. In some ways this journey seems familiar. In other ways it seems very different and a bit unnerving.

As I sit outside the camper in SW Montana on the 6th night of our journey, it still feels a little bit like our traditional camping vacations. It’s different in that we have intentionally moved slower, prayed more intentionally, and have a strong sense that the Lord has something special for us on this journey. We both our digging into God’s word as we seek His direction.

Grateful Hearts

Susan and I have a deep sense of gratitude that our church family in Watauga has allowed us to follow the Lord’s direction in this great adventure. The Lord has taught me the value of His local churches through experience and through His Word. As we love our Lord, we also love His bride. I believe that in following Him on this journey that He will take care of His church and continue to prepare me for the great adventures that lie ahead.

I don’t expect everything to work out perfectly. We’ve already made a few minor repairs to our camper which is to be expected with a 14 year-old unit. However, the Lord has also already blessed us with incredible scenery and the privilege to watch a lot of great wildlife in the first few days of the adventure.

Saddle Up, Let’s Ride

When Susan speaks of this adventure, I can’t help but reflect on the song from Steven Curtis Chapman from the early days of our ministry – The Great Adventure. The Great Adventure video was filmed in Grand Teton National Park where we spent our last three nights. Tomorrow, we head north to Glacier National Park and Sunday morning we plan to cross into Canada on the way to the Artic Ocean. We don’t know what lies down the road, but we do know that HE IS ALREADY THERE!

“Saddle up our horses
We’ve got a trail to blaze
Through the wild blue yonder of God’s Amazing grace
Let’s follow our leader into the Glorious unknown
This is the life like no other, whoa whoa
This is The Great Adventure.”